I’m reading the self-help articles, deep breathing, trying to eat well, get my sleep, doing the things I love to create “balance”, think positively and all. But, still today, I don’t feel like I’m good at anything and frankly, I’m not sure I can do this at all. I’m a perfectionist. I want to be good at everything but there is a certain crushing volume that does not equate with perfection.
I wake up ready to face the day with greatness, get in to the office early, straighten things up, organize my thoughts and to do list…and, by 9:00 am I am seeking a vodka tonic in my mind. This can’t be a good sign.
I manage to redirect, push through, accomplish a lot of pretty great work and 10-11 hours later, I’m leaving feeling OK. The day was a success overall with a few “dips in the road” and I leave determined to not let stress get to me tomorrow. So, I’ll read some more articles tonight, eat my chocolate with a glass of wine, pray, meditate, vent and focus, ready to tackle tomorrow and make a difference for someone.
I’ve got this. I have what it takes. I have what I need.